WISH-LESS

Something New

2012-01-25T02:04:00.002+08:00

I went through last year's post and I must say.. I had a pretty rough year last year.

Almost every single post was about me complaining, telling myself not to complain and/or saying that my previous week wasnt good and isnt getting any better.

As opposed to this year.

Im not saying that things are going great. Im just saying that its going.. Okay. Not eventful, but okay. Maybe a little boring but I guess/hope time will fix that.

Time went by pretty quickly as you can see, since its already the 25th. Yes, 6 more days till the month of lovers as I call it.

Im not ecstatic over it as usual but I am still looking forward to it. Theres something about Valentine's Day that makes me feel hopeful. Not about myself but I like to see other people getting gifts too. I dont know, theres just something about it.

Not gonna pull off any crazy stunts this year. I am taking a BREAK from freaking people out. Plus, the last person I freaked out and may emotionally scar is now in my class and next year too so whoopie. Im positive he doesnt even like me as a human being, let alone something special though my friends tried to prove me otherwise. Nice try guys but Im fine. Well, not really. I will be.

I dont know but I think theres something wrong here somewhere. I cant really put my finger to it but I dont feel like how I used to feel. When Im happy, I dont feel warmth anymore. And maybe its cause I lask motivation. And inspiration. Again.

I really need to pull myself together. Im going for a debate comp in Feb and if I dont get myself together then, Im going to bring down my whole team. I cant do that. But I also cant help it. Everything Im doing, Im not doing it with my heart. Its like my soul flew away to God knows where and I dont know how to get it back. When I read notes or even TRY to think of an argument, I cant. It either wont stick to my brain or wont come at all.

Maybe I just need some sleep.

2011

2012-01-01T19:35:00.003+08:00

I guess its pretty dumb for me to write about the past since today is the very first day of a new year but I feel the need to.

I went through alot this year. Nothing big like a death of a loved one, no. I learned a whole lot about friendship. How sometimes, your biggest enemy can turn into your best friend. How something as easy as a text can make your heart skip a beat. How small gestures and words from strangers can brighten up someone's day. How changing for a guy means nothing if he's gonna like you for who you're not. And most importantly, how your friends will be there for you, even if you're a pain in the ass sometimes.

Never judge a book by its cover. People change. If things dont work the first time, they most likely wont work the second time.

Only now do I truly know the meaning of these words.

This year was eventful. And if I had to do it again, there are so many things that I would've changed. But I cant and now, I can only learn from my mistakes.

Many of my friends wont be around in DJ next year, including my bestest friend. Everythings gonna be different now, knowing I wont have you to back me up with all the shitty school stuff and to understand our secret nods and codes. I'll miss you.

To my classmates in 3 Batai, I have to be honest. I hated you guys. Coming to school was like a horrible chore, are opposed to how I felt about school last year. But as the year went by, I started to get to know every single one of you better. Its amazing how 39 individuals can respectively change my minds toward them after spending 5 days a week for a year. It really is amazing. We all went through alot together with the dramas and the choir. I guess thats one of the main reasons why I, in a way, loved this class. What our class fails in attendance, excels in spirit. All those practices and class time really brought us together and bonded us towards the end.

I love you guys. It has been one hell of a year in a bad way, and the best possible way. And I hope you guys feel the same way too. We all wont be in the same class next year. But I hope to be with atleast the 3 of you. If not, I hope we still remain friends in any way. I miss you guys already.

Happy New Year.

Matched by Ally Condie

2011-11-16T22:10:00.002+08:00

What does it feel like to have your whole life under control of the government? How many children you have. Who your perfect partner is. Where you work. When you die. Scary huh? But if this is the only way for you to live a long, healthy life then so be it, no?

Thats what life is like in the future. Things such as songs, poem and so on are only reduced to hundred in order for people to cherish what they have. The others are destroyed, burnt. Things like running in public and writing is forbidden. What a world.

The main of this story is a girl called Cassia, who has just been matched on her seventeenth birthday. Apparently, she was matched with her best friend, Xander. And when she viewed the microcard containing all the info about him, another guy's picture came out.

Now if it were you, would you get all confused and fall in love with the latter guy? Heck no I wouldnt. Xander is a nice lad, always taking care of her yet she still plays love with this other guy just because the government made a mistake. By loving this guy, she is practically going against the government. But love conquers all right?

Not really. Not when what you're doing is putting yours, his and heck, you're FAMILY'S life in danger. The strange thing is, she said that she loves Xander eventhough she's in love with Ky ( the other guy ).

Throughout the whole book I kept praying that Cassia realizes her mistake and goes back to Xander, a guy who loves her and wont do her any harm. But she doesnt. I also tried so hard to like every single romantic scene the author has created for Cassia and Ky but I cant help to feel extremely sorry for Xander. How could she do this to him?

Honestly, I hated her character. But then I realized that she's just like me. She cant see the amazing person who has been there for her at all times and went for a guy that appeared in her microcard by mistake. And then I wonder. If someone were to write about me in a book, will I like myself?

Yes? Maybe? No. Definitely not.

Sure, my story would be a romantic one. But for some people like myself. I will always remain the bad one. So called 'loving' two people isnt acceptable. You go with the one thats best for you. Atleast, thats what all the rubbish love quotes say.

' Stop chasing and look at the ones who have been chasing you instead '.

Something like that. I tried to do that. I really did. Maybe Im just like Cassia. Maybe I'll never like the guy that is 'meant' for me. Maybe Im just meant to be with someone unexpected.

So many memorable lines from this book but I will post it some other time. Read the book. You might love it as much as I did. And you might hate Ky and love Xander just like I did too.

Sacred Silence

2011-11-16T01:57:00.002+08:00

I was this close to deleting my blog and making a new one. This might seem normal for some people but not for me. Im big on nostalgics. I planned on using the same email address,same blog link, same phone number until the day I die. To me, changing these is like changing the only things that are constant in my life. Something that I can change for myself.

Apparently, I was wrong.

Some idiot hacked into my email address now all my contacts are gone. Nada. Zilch. Poof. I made a new one, of course but its not the same. It has new written all over it. From a person's email address, you can see what kind of phase he/she went to. And when someone question it, they can easily blame the fact that they were say, 10 at the time. Its acceptable to have oh, I dont know, an anime-ish email address when you were 10. Not if you're 15 though. You're expected to come up with something cool. Which I failed to do.

Losing my email address somehow gave me an impact. Small, but an impact nonetheless. It means now that my 'vow' has been broken, I am free to make any changes I want to the things I refused to before.

I really wanted to make a new blog. To start fresh, anew. Get rid of the sadness and the 'Syafinas-ness' written all over the blog. Insert new, positive goals and posts.

But I cant do that. Theres so many posts in hear that are memorable, in its own way. Some things that I cant decipher because I was speaking in codes. But when I really think hard about it, I'll be able to do it.

Even by changing my blog link means that I have altered my memories. My past. I have never deleted a post before, for I am big on memories.

Well guess what? I'll never change the link of this blog, delete it nor private it. Even if it becomes abandoned one day. I will never do such a thing.

The holidays have been treating me pretty well so far. Went out a couple of times and stayed in for the most (haha). But somehow, I pretty upset about the fact that my relationships with people have changed. I didnt receive a single text or hello or anything from the ones I care about. Who are they? You dont need to know.

Relationships

2011-10-27T01:58:00.003+08:00

There was a guy in my past who never failed to remind me to smile. Everytime I felt low, when I think he's not looking, my phone will suddenly beep and the text will read 'Smile a little :)'
Its amazing how certain words coming from certain people can change your day from a terrible one to a day you'll repeat forever in your head. Its amazing how one's presence can change who you are now.

People say that when a person from your past comes back, it usually means trouble. Or even means that you ought to give it another shot. Because what might have happened in the past was a mistake, an action that shouldnt have been taken was taken.

I did that mistake before. Before I gave him a chance, I shut him out and listened to my friends who, in this case, arent the best people to listen to.

I tried to move on. Forget about it. Buried the guilt deep in my heart, locked it with so many lock that I hoped no one found the key.

He didnt do that though. No, he never gave up. Ever since I left, he never gave up in trying to get my attention. He caught it alright, but I was just too egoistic. I knew that going back to him was admitting that I made a mistake. Which, I clearly did.

All I really longed for was for him to talk to me. To make the first move instead of me doing everything. And yesterday, he did. After a long time, we finally truly spoke to each other. And Im glad.

Im not gonna let you go again. No matter what, we're gonna take it slow and make this work. There must be a reason why you came back right? If it doesnt work, then maybe its not meant to be. If it does.. Well, we're just gonna have to wait and see, no?

A Fool

2011-10-12T16:56:00.002+08:00

PMR is finally over! Yes, its been about months since I updated anything but I guess Im back! Life's been good, kinda. As you can see, its October now which means that the end of the year is around the corner. Honestly, Im kinda glad for that. I mean, this year has been.. eventful. In ways I will never forget. But not necessarily in a good way.

I've been waiting since the starting of the year for the end of PMR. Now that its finally here, I dont really know what to do. Schools gonna be dead boring with teachers failed attempts to make our day interesting. I mean cmon, a Science quiz? How interesting. Atleast they'll be playing 'Spirited Away'. I almost screamed when our teacher announced that.

Anyway, Im too lazy to start operation 'Get Hot' since it requires me moving. Which Im too lazy to do right now, TYVM. No motivation. Unless theres someone thats willing to call me or yell at me to exercise every hour, I'll remain the same as always ; short.

Operation 'Catch-Up-With-Anime' cant be launched because my 'beautiful' broadband is as slow as a sloth. Yes. That slow.

Looks like I gotta think of something else. That, or find some motivation to do something meaningful.

I Need a Doctor

2011-08-13T01:31:00.002+08:00

To bring me back to life.

Ramadhan started about a week ago. And frankly speaking, I dont really feel any difference to it. Sure, I feel slightly 'lighter' in a way but besides not eating and drinking, I feel perfectly the same. Well maybe, not really. Nothing exciting happened still. Everything is still the same. Yeap. No excitement whatsoever.

Trials are next week. Im not sure how Im feeling though. I did many exercises that I think my head would crack. But Im not worried. Well not yet lah I think.

Right now I feel sad-ish for reasons that I cant state. Basically, I dont understand certain things. Like, why must we feel a certain way? Why must we feel jealous? Or angry? Why must we say things we shouldnt? Why do we do things we dont want to do?

Whywhywhy.

Change

2011-06-28T23:54:00.003+08:00

source ; weheartit.com

Ladies and gentlemen,

Before I begin my speech, I would like to summarize my previous week with one word and one word only. Unforgettable.

You know how I've always had this love/hate relationship with debate? How I hate the feeling I get when we're prepping. And how I love the feeling I get during and after my speech. And how much I hated the fact that we have to do another motion after one is over?

Yeah, its still there. But one day, Im sure the love will win against the hate.

Last week, I managed to skip classes since well, the British Parliamentary Debate Competition was on Friday. Imagine how I felt, unprepared, still traumatized about my previous debate experience, competing on Friday.

Terrible, yes. Oh it was worse. It was much worse.

I dreaded practices. But I always feel great after my speech. Its really weird. I cant really explain it so Im just going to move on.

Anyway, we had practices during school hours and we usually crash at Tze Kwang's house after school. The first time I went there, I felt awkward. Uncomfortable. Now, I miss it.

On the day of the competition itself, I told myself to 'man up' and not chicken out by purposely waking up late. Well, I WAS late. But not on purpose of course. I was stuck in traffic. And when I finally decided to call Jason, telling him I would be late, he called me first. He's psychic, that guy.

I almost didnt recognize his voice. It was usually upbeat and cheerful. But his voice was completely monotonous. Which kinda increased my nervous level.

Well the nervous-ness did die down eventually. Since it took hours for our first round to start. By then, I just wanted to get it over with. But when we got our motion which was 'THW BAN VIDEO GAMES THAT GLORIFIES TERRORISTS AND CRIMINALS, I cant say i wasnt slightly relieved. With my 'luck', Shin Lin and I got Opening Gov which means we were the ones who had to set the case and so on.

I almost died when the chair called me to speak. But it felt almost natural as I was making my speech. The whole thing wasnt that bad. Still, I was really shocked when we came in second.

The other teams did really well too. If Im not mistaken, about 2 teams got 1st.

The other rounds passed eventfully. ESPECIALLY the fourth round. Gosh. It turned out that one of the adjudicators who is supposedly against our school, is chairing that round. I was sooo nervous.

Well, I had every right to be nervous. We came in last. I dont mind it, really. But he practically humiliated me infront of everyone. I tried not to glare at him while he was insulting me. I think I did though. As soon as he was done. I slowly got out of my seat, walked towards the door, closed it behind me, and burst into tears. Seriously, what he said was really harsh. Especially since it was my very very first time. And I thought he had no right to say such things.

Siew tried her best to console me. So did the others. But I was still deeply hurt. I think it would stay there forever. But I had to move on anyway, and just learn to not care about that.. person.

Thee last day came. Dundundun. I must say I did pretty well during the 5th and 7th round. But I dont know why, we didnt win those rounds either. Oh well. I must be better for next year!

Alycia and Andrew made it through quarters. I must say that they were very good and deserved to break :)

I learned so much throughout this whole thing. I learned that sometimes, adults can be an ass too. And that its not as stressful if you try to have fun during a debate.

But also, I learned to be a much better debater. Im so grateful for Jason, who (kinda) forced me into this without asking me first. And for my partner Shin Lin for stepping in when I was partner-less. Dude, I had so much fun with you as my partner :)

Im also very very grateful for my seniors, Siew and Sophia for helping me improve. For correcting my every mistake and being patient when I make crappy speeches. Thank you soo much Daniel, for showing me how to write better notes and how to make a more structured speech. Ghee Ken, for helping me with identifying clash points and explaining petty things that I dont understand. Thank you guys so much for your support. Tim, Amanda, Claudia, Andrew, Alycia, Tze Kwang, Hazel and even Zhiwei for having my back. For consoling me when I was feeling bummed, just you guys being there after each round makes me feel better.

Now that Im back in school, everything seems different now. How I think, how I feel, how I see things. I think this experience pretty much changed me in a way I cant imagine. And now, I think I love debate even more than before.

Because

Only in debate, I dont mind people hugging me.
Only in debate, you can choose not to answers questions that could break your argument.
Only in debate, everything you say matters, and are listened carefully.

Last but not least,

Only in debate, I feel like I belong.

Because that pang of loneliness I used to have every now and then? I dont feel it there. 'Cause I have them.

And with that, Im proud to propose.

Different Dimension

2011-06-19T00:34:00.002+08:00

What a hectic week. All the stress about 3 things going on at the same time is driving me well, nuts.

Next week is gonna be even MORE hectic. With BP and cheer practices and LEO meetings and whatnot. Gawd. But I'm secretly glad for all these things. Dont have to bother my head about unnecessary things.

Had some complications about BP this week. My partner pulled out which left me with a semi-heartbreak since I was REAAAAALLLY looking forward to being in the same team as him. Tried convincing about a thou times but failed. No worries! I have a new partner now. Though I'm not as psyched about the whole thing anymore. Still, at least I'll be competing!

Mom lectured me a few times this week about slacking off too much. I guess she's right. I should get back on my tracks and FOCUS.

By Hating You

2011-06-12T02:38:00.002+08:00

I really don't feel inspired enough to blog about anything but its already the 12th of June ( I think ).

Anyway, mid term exams are over. How did I come out of it? Not that good. But I dont think I'll be 'failing' any subjects. The very next day, my class received atleast 4 papers back from our teachers. Not really happy about my Geo results since I studied like a madman the night before. But atleast its an improvement from last year. *cough* C *cough* Got super bad for Maths. Well super bad for MY standards lah. Was really disappointed in myslef but theres no point in dwelling about it right?

Skipped teacher's day since I know its gonna be hella boring and even if it isnt, I dont feel like going anyway. So yeah, 2 weeks off holiday started after.

First week was.. OK. Went to Perlis till Monday.

Tuesday was supposed to be a hell of a day with Cheer in the morning, debate after and tuition at night. But apparently cheer was canceled, woke up too late and missed debate and I had no transport to go to tuition. Sucks to be me yeah?

Sometime that week I went to La Salle PJ's IU day. I thought it would be slightly more eventful and yknow, 'eye-feasting' but it was pretty boring and everyone looked dull.

The week after was pretty fun. Went out quite a few times because of school-related stuff. Ohyeah, remember I took an interview to be a BOD for Leo? Well, I passed :D

Kinda. I didnt get what I applied for (PR). Instead, I got a post for Membership. Huh. I wonder what it does? Still psyched about it anyway.

Also, Im kinda proud of myself for not skipping debate on Monday. I mean, I REALLY didnt want to go because of, well, self-esteem reasons but I went anyway. And Im glad I did :D

Tomorrow (or today since its already gonna be 3 a.m) is Monday. Which means.. School. I dont. wanna. go. And Im freaking serious here, no shizz.

Gotta update when have something meanigful to say.

The Waltz

2011-05-31T23:42:00.001+08:00

Best 1 minute 59 seconds song evar.

I guess I should update since its the last day of May. Unfortunately, I have nothing wise to say so MAY you have a happy JUNE. Gosh, Im hilarious.

I Think I'll Go to Boston

2011-05-05T23:00:00.003+08:00

What a day!

There was this ikrar PMR thingy during school today. Frankly, it freaked me out even more since EVERY SINGLE speech has the sentence 'oh, I think you have about 5 months left?'. I wanted to shout that I FREAKING know when PMR is, thank you very much. When Pn Maryann was making her speech, she mentioned the song Firework by Katy Perry. At that point I was sure the song was going to start playing out of nowhere to make her speech more inspirational. But it didnt. Suprisingly, it did though, when we were signing our 'oath' letters.

Got out of school early at about 12.30? Me and a few others were heading to HELP uni to support our schools debate team. Yeah, I know. Sounds geeky right? And something not worth skipping LEO for right? Wrong. Somehow, I find debate really exciting. I tried explaining this to a friend or two of mine but neither of them understood my feelings. HAHA. Weird I know.

The school ours was going against was an all-boys school, or so it seems like it. There WAS quite a few cute guys over there but I didnt say anything. :p

Anywhooo, our school won :D

They were so cool and the whole thing was not at all boring. The opposing team wasnt that bad either. Its just that some of their points/rebuttals were pretty ridiculous.

Went straight to tuition after that. Ohyeah, I went back with a teacher and she was driving a Kelisa/Kancil, a reaaally small car. There was about 4 people at the back and another infront. And let me tell you, when we were going up a slope or something, the car was at snails pace. HAHA. It was hilarious.

Soo.. I went to tuition with my baju kurung. A few freaked out on how 'Malay' I look. Funny. The last time I checked, I AM Malay.

Dont think Im gonna do any studying (or homework) tonight. Head hurts like mad, I just wanna sleep.

Lets Fall in Love. Again.

2011-04-22T22:22:00.002+08:00

"Fairy tales do not tell children the dragons exist. Children already know that dragons exist. Fairy tales tell children the dragons can be killed."

G. K. Chesterton

A wonderful quote I heard in Criminal Minds.

Soo.. IU Day was beyond awesome. It was DA BOMB. Eventhough I spent 95% of my time backstage and never really enjoyed the day itself, I still had a fun time. Plus, the last 5% I thought 'screw it' and joined the crowd jumping and singing maniacally to the band Applesauce. Seriously, I never sang that loudly before in my life.

Today, I joined the Eco Flash Mob thingy I wanted to join a few weeks ago. I must say, it was a last minute thing since there was so little people 'representing' DJ's Leo club. The dance steps werent that hard, I actually learnt it in a day!

As my friend and I reached TC Mall, we can obviously identify the other flash mob-ers since

a) We were supposed to carry Eco bags.

b) TC Mall, a place that is usually deserted is filled with youngsters.

c) They were hanging out in a huge group for goodness sake!

So much for not being obvious.

The whole thing was.. alright. I was pretty disappointed though, no idea why. At the end of the dance, the schools that took part took a group photo, one-by-one. Sadly, since DJ only has 6 dancers, we didnt take a group photo. Another disappointment.

Oh well, at least I tried something new this year. Cant wait for other events in the future!

Ps, exams are in about, what? 3 weeks or so? Imma freak out since my class is full of brainiacs. :/

Living in the Memory

2011-04-09T00:55:00.004+08:00

Its going to be 1 am in 6 minutes but hey, I've got nothing to worry about. Sure theres school tomorrow.. ON A SATURDAY. But I'm not going :D

Wow its been weeks since I've updated. Not many things happened since though. Things are still really boring and blah. Though I'm not as sad as last week. I actually got pass this week without having an 'emotional breakdown'. haha.

I went for LEO's interview, to be one of the BODs. Aaaand, I applied for PR. Crazy, no? All my friends thought it was dumb of me since I 'hate people'. Pfft. I didnt screw up. But I didnt ace it either. Very very worried now. Heck after a week, Im still very very worried. A friend of my sister said I couldnt stand a chance to get that post. I think he's right. Well kinda. There were a few other people applying for PR too. And Im sure I was the only Form 3 there.

Since I applied for something, Im supposed to go to the RCC meeting on Sunday. Im doomed I tell you. I dont know anyone there and I dont have the full uniform.

Today, I went against my better judgment and went for IU day's audition instead of the Eco Flashmob dance class. Cmon people. A FLASHMOB. Something I realllyyyy wanted to go for. But no, I went for the audition. It wasnt that bad though. The whole thing, not the performances. They were great. Theres gonna be another one for bands tomorrow at Akarkarya. Im definitely not going for that one!

Speaking of IU day, I must say that I'm pretty excited about it! I still cant find the right stuff for might outfit yet but hopefully, hopefully I can get them this Sunday.

Boom.

Falling

2011-03-25T15:56:00.003+08:00

Tegami Bachi

Just as Im starting to like school. Just as Im starting to like my class, my classmates. BAM. Someone dropped a bomb into my property and left it there.

Argh, Im so tired of complaining! There hasnt been a single week so far that was even fairly 'ok'. EVERY TIME Im starting to feel like I belong, I find out something terribly awful that changes everything. I never felt so alone as of today.

Im really, really glad its Friday. And I dont think I can face another week of school. Its just too much. Haih. I feel like a b-tard for even writing this post.

Any nice, sad related emotion songs to listen to? I need to dwell into my depression, please.

Hate

2011-03-17T01:09:00.001+08:00

OH HELL YEAH.

That's Right

2011-03-12T23:13:00.002+08:00

Trying to feel sad now, but I cant.

This week was.. strange. Tried something new and I think I did a pretty good job.

Though Friday wasant a good enough day to wrap up the week.

Ohyeah, Operation Z is a complete bust. Dont think I should bother trying anymore.

A week to rest now.

fuuuhhh.

Jumper

2011-03-05T03:00:00.004+08:00

A few days ago, my friend told me that if he could have any special ability, it would be teleportation, as its really cool, like the movie Jumper.

Eventhough Jumper was aired on tv quite a few times already, I never got around to watch it since it didnt look all that interesting. Since I have the movie in my laptop, I thought 'whattaheck, lets give it a try'

The movie was actually pretty good. Though the video was kinda sucky and was really laggy at most of the fighting scenes. And the ending got cut off == but whatever.

As usual, I dont like the main guy David Rice since he's well, weak. Every time he encounters Roland or any other guy, he fails to fight back and instead gets stuck into that electric thingy which is apparently a jumper's weakness.

Also, his love for Millie completely dangers himself and personally, I think shes such a nuisance.

Griffin on the other hand is very very lovable. From his accent to his cool attitude. AND he knows how to fight and survive which is an ultra bonus.

My excitement toward the movie visibly fell when David decided to get rid of Griffin. Damn.

Well I guess I have to agree that teleportation is pretty cool. Still, Jumper cant beat my all time favourite teleporter, Nightcrawler from X-Men. He is thee best.

March, Im Alive

2011-02-28T22:54:00.003+08:00

A new month, a new start. Or so I hope.

My hair is as dark as the night, FINALLY. Cant really think of anything to say since theres still nothing interesting going on.

Going around the DJ neighbourhood with Mei Ping tomorrow to collect donations for LEO. If we go by Atria, I hope we dont get chased out or something.

Re-watched Valentine's Day on Sunday. Its actually pretty sweet. barfbarfbarf.

Since today is the last day of February, I decided to make a New Month Resolution, since I completely crashed and burned this month. Its only logic if I set my goal straight for March. After all, 2 months have passed which means that Im 2 months less closer to PMR (wth?)

New month resolution ;

Do all my homework.

Pathetic, I know. But I gotta start SOMEWHERE, small or whatever. Not gonna care bout other shizz like talking to whoever anymore. If I talk to him, I talk to him. If I dont, I wont have an emotional breakdown just because of it. Seriously, this whole thing is driving me nuts. And again, distracting. Boom out.

Time Travelling

2011-02-26T23:02:00.002+08:00

Image; Google

Merentas desa passed as quickly and as quietly as it came. Too dissapointed and as usual, too down to think of anything else.

Forget Me.

2011-02-16T19:50:00.002+08:00

A great day that went downhill after school ended. Basically I didnt enjoy taekwondo. Honestly, I never do.

Lost debate btw, dont ask how/why/wtf? coz I wasant really affected by the loss. No idea why. Valentine's day, which was on the same day, was dissapointing. Really. I expected things to be far more exciting that what had happen.

Need to get self motivated. Im really lacking it lately.

GOTTA BE STRONG LIKE ROAR.

Cant You Hear Me Calling

2011-02-13T17:27:00.004+08:00

Fun day yesterday. :D

Started off with debate in the morning, I cant help but notice that I've gained more confidence for tomorrow.

Then at about 8pm, went of to play futsal at sunsuria. Something I never though i'd do. Had a pretty fun time too. Though I had mixed feelings about something. And was slightly dissapointed too. Life goes on.

Anyway, Valentine's day/debate is tomorrow. I REALLY dont know if im excited or nervous right now since its been bumping into each other since I woke up. I really want to win this since Im going against an ex teammate and ex opponent. Who both witnessed my humiliating moment last year @@

Wish me luck!

Neverland

2011-02-05T16:58:00.004+08:00

I've watched the cartoon version of Peter Pan countless times but I've never really watched this one. Until today that is.

At one point, Peter looked completely HORRIFIED when Wendy mentioned the word 'feelings'.

He got so mad, he told her to 'go home and take her feelings with her'.

Weird isnt it? Guys getting ticked off by that word.

Anyway, after watching this movie, I felt something.. different. and I shall type it out loud.

I DONT WANT TO GROW UP! D:

No, really! If I had a chance to go to Neverland, honestly I would. The way Peter described how our life would be on earth seems awfully dreadful. Cant find the quote anywhere though.

Jeremy Stumpter is so cute~

Even if he looks like he's sexually harassing Wendy.

Im On My Way Home

2011-01-31T15:18:00.003+08:00

I am determined to make this week efficient to me. No, Im not going to complain about my previous week since it obviously didnt get any better *whoosh*

The month of lovers is coming up soon and idiotically, I ordered a cupcake from Interact to give to my so-called loved one. Yeah sure.

Currently downloading Inception. I know, I know, GASP! YOU HAVENT WATCHED IT?!

No I have not.

Also, I finally made up a wishlist. Unbelievable, no? Well here it is.

Photoshop CS2 or higher/OpenCanvas/ Paint tool SAI.
Actually any drawing program will do.

Why? Well I dont even have a crappy one, let alone a good one. And Im not about to waste my mom's money for buying me a tablet. Needa practice, and for that, I need a drawing program.

Any generous donors?

Just be Friends

2011-01-20T00:51:00.002+08:00

I have really got to stop complaining about school. But incase you're wondering, its not getting much better. To be honest, I think Im driving myself crazy for over analysing things.

Anyway, I finally watched Jarhead the other day. Truth be told, I was very dissapointed as I expected the movie to be more.. well.. lets just say that there were too many cursewords in the movie. And Im more than 'not fond' of bad words.

I have debate on Saturday. Im not sure if Im officially on the team or not but I really hope I am considering I didnt get into Nostalgia. Yeap. DAAAAAAMNNNN DISSAPOINTING WEIH.

So, yeah. I hope I dont screw up like how I did last year. Urgh. Just thinking about it makes me feel stupid.

Finding Perfection

2011-01-14T22:23:00.003+08:00

Still waiting for things to get better.

I should stop complaining. Been doing that too much lately. Also, I think my fringe is affecting the way I act. Want proof? I. Joined. Cheer.

Unbelievable eh? Lets just hope I cant still train for running too.

Had PMD a couple of days ago. Was freaking boring compared to the years before. I think I lost my 'touch' in speaking too. Usually if my group does something that involves presenting it to the front, I would easily volunteer to do the explaining. But lately, I just dont feel like it.

I guess depression is getting to my head.

Gunslinger

2011-01-07T19:05:00.003+08:00

'Happy' New Year?

Not by much.

I finally managed to get through this week without having an emotional breakdown. The only time I felt 'really' like myself was near the end of school today. That very happy feeling. ohhh yeaahhh..

No chance in getting to Nostalgia this year. My half hour or so wasted on the essay I had to hand in was wasted. And I wrote something great on that app form :(

Today, my english teacher made us write an essay about a person you admire. The catch is, it must be someone you personally know. Who did I write about? Its P&C. I'll die if someone knows who I wrote about.

Put Your Hands Up!

2010-12-30T21:54:00.003+08:00

Considering I wont be able to go online when the clock strikes 12 tomorrow, I might as well write my 'speech' now.

2010 was a very eventful year. So, so many memories, good and bad.

Eventhough I enjoyed last year, this year was well, something.

Things I 'Achieved' in 2010

Embarrassed myself in a new way (a.k.a DEBATE!)
Confessed to guy
REJECTED!
Ask the same guy out
REJECTED!!! (Im sad)
Went to my first anime convention :)
Ate sushi for the very first time. (Did NOT enjoy it)
Drank bubble tea for the first time in years
Had my very own suprise party :)
Discovered my 'hidden talent' ; MATHS.
Lost a few of my dear friends
Gained new ones
Won my first medal for sports day
Nicknamed 'stalker' by a group of guys
Wore a dress to an open house
Got 2 C's (HAHAHAHA)
Cosplayed for the very first time
Made up with someone I used to loathe
Discovered a nemesis. Yes, YOU DEVIL IN BLUE!

Not a very happy list eh? Oh well.

Happy New Year everyone.

December is Darkest

2010-12-27T22:12:00.003+08:00

Last week of December. Probably going to be as uneventful as the rest of the month.

Comic Fiesta.. was not worth blogging about. Not kidding. I did cosplay though. No pictures. You can see it at me friend, Mei Ping's blog.

Too Good to be True

2010-12-15T00:24:00.006+08:00

Hello! Im back from my trip to Terengganu. My family and I stayed at a hotel called Tanjong Jara Resort. When we came out of the van, we were greeted by a loud *gong*, cool, rolled-up towels and rosel drinks, their signature.

After checking in, my sisters and I were taken on a short tour by one of the people there, a trainee named Giovanni. Somehow, my sister misheard his name and we kept making fun of it :X

He's only worked there for about a week so he seemed very nervous but still very nice.

Our room was amazing. But the thing that really caught our eyes were the bathroom. It was HUGE! Waaay bigger than the room itself!

After that, we all went to have breakfast and went for 'a dip' at the pool.

The next day, my mom booked us to a traditional hair treatment. I wasant very happy of the outcome since my hair got all oily and rough and I didnt have an hour to leave the stuff on my hair first before washing it off. Though my hair turned all soft and silky the next day.

We went cycling after that at 6km of distance, lead by a dude there. I didnt feel very tired and the view was gorgeous. Too bad none of us brought the camera along!

On the last day, we went sightseeing around Kuala Terengganu. Went to look at some batiks, eat delicious keropok lekors and visited the Masjid Kristal. We reached back home at about 11 p.m.

The thing I absolutely loved most about the resort is its customer service. Everyone there is just so friendly. Whenever they see you, they'll greet you with an honest smile and ask if you enjoyed yourself. Also they are mostly young and good looking. Not necessarily handsome and beautiful but good looking. You know how I always think that friendly and nice people have hidden agendas? Well I think I know theirs ; MAKING SURE YOU COME BACK SOON. And I think it worked.

Unfortunately, the downside of it is the food. While dinner was heavenly,breakfast and lunch lacks variety and wasant particularly delicious. They should've added more things in the menu.

Overall, I had a blast. And this time, I really wont mind going there again. :)

Breathless

2010-12-10T20:42:00.004+08:00

Watched Masterchef again last night (or morning, depending on how you look at it), and saw how Mike got eliminated. It was horrendous. Though I think that Sheetal person should've gone home considering she got more time than the others but still messed up by her dessert. Pfft.

Anyway, I finally watched Harry Potter on Monday with my friends. Enjoyed the movie and it was very exciting though I wanted to see more of Ron in action instead of being all whimpy and go home. Although, it was pretty hard for me to REALLY ENJOY the movie since the row behind me was making SO MUCH FREAKING NOISE. With the little kid LOUDLY complaining, a dude commenting on how STUPID the characters were and an old-ish lady LOUDLY asking questions. Gosh.

Oh well. Im going to Terengganu tomorrow! Lets hope I dont get a suntan with Comic Fiesta around the corner and school opening up soon.

you have stolen my heart.

now give it back, punk.

When Worlds Collide

2010-12-03T20:27:00.006+08:00

ba-bump

I could literally hear my heartbeat pound. The suspense was killing me and if I had to wait any longer, I could've strangled somebody.

So what was this show thats been making me so nervous in the middle of the night (or morning, depending on how you look at it)?

Yeap. In the episode that I was watching, there was only 8 contestants left and they had to split into two groups, red and blue. Their challenge was to cook for a WEDDING. Hella big pressure huh?

Somehow, the blue team lost. Unfortunately, my el favourite contestant Mike is in there. And when the judges announced that HALF of them are going home if they failed the pressure test, I almost died. Mike is a damn good cook but he didnt even know what he was doing so I was pretty scared that he was going to be sent home.

Luckily, he didnt. And honestly, I was really really happy about it.

So whats so special about Mike that Im rooting for him?

Maybe its because he's Korean (unlikely)

or maybe its cause his name is Mike (very likely)

when I was googling the masterchef logo, my hand itched over one of the articles. And SIGH. SIGH. SIGH. I know who won. And that person doesnt deserve it. At all, sorry.

I really want Mike to win but whatever,

GOOOO MIKE!!!

Magic.

2010-12-01T00:54:00.004+08:00

Happy December.

Ahh.. I can actually feel that the holidays are here. FINALLY.

Tomodachi.

2010-11-25T17:08:00.005+08:00

I wonder why people get so bored during the holidays. When theres school, we cant wait to get out and be free. But when it's finally here, we just waste our time going online and turn on the antisocial mode.

Seriously. Thats what happened to me.

Even when I DO want to go out, the people I want to go with will surely give me stupid reasons on why they cant go. Theres even some that didnt even BOTHER to reply my text whatsoever.

And I still havent watched Harry Potter yet.

boohoo.

Running Away

2010-11-14T19:53:00.004+08:00

A few days ago, I wanted to write the usual long sad post on 2 Cengal and all the fun ( and not so fun times ) we had. Unfortunately, my internet broke down time every time I logged into blogger. Now that Im finally here.. Well, I lost inspiration.

Tried out some new drawing programs. They were all EPIC FAIL. None as good as Open Canvas. Since I joined this darned ' Secret Santa' thing, Im required to ask a present from my santa. Unfortunately, if I want him/her to draw my OC, they must know the colours.

Yeap, great. Good thing that I cant find any good program to colour in. GAHHH..

Missed the Cengal outing today. Seems like I missed quite a few things this month. Last day of school, Nostalgia interview and the class outing. SIGH. I shall just lie dead and be completely happy.

AniManGaki '10

2010-11-02T01:18:00.007+08:00

After thinking that I will never go to atleast one anime convention in my whole life, I finally went to AniManGaki on Sunday.

It was such an odd but fun experience. At first, me and my friends were just standing there not knowing where to go. Thank god there was a guy telling us to go to the fourth floor.

When we reached there, it was so full of people, mainly cosplayers though. And honestly, I reallly felt that i should cosplay (haha) since I thought it would be one heck of a fun. But I didnt have enough time to pull anything together. :/

As soon as we got there, I spotted this one super cute guy, cosplaying as Sano from The Law of Ueki. Gosh I almost died. But I was so nervous to ask him to take a photo with me. I mean really! He was just standing there, being tall.

When I finally got the nerve to ask him, I thought he said NO. haha! But here it is;ahhh... I have to thank my friend Mei Ping for all the lovely picas since MY camera died before everything even started. HAHA.

Somehow, this whole convention gives you a good reason to take pictures of/with anybody (I.E CUTIES) especially if they're cosplayers since it wouldnt be odd at all!

All in all, I had a great time. From the picture taking to the haunted house to the so-called-no-onion-burger. This is something Imma remember forever as its the first anime convention I'd ever been to. And it certainly wouldnt be the last ;)

AND NEXT TIME IM SO GONNA FREAKING COSPLAY.

The Demonata by Darren Shan

2010-10-30T20:07:00.006+08:00

'' In the beginning, Grubbs created the heavens and the earth, and everything was dark. Then Grubbs said, 'Let there be light!'

And there was light. Coolio!''

Those were the last sentence of the last book of the series, The Demonata.

This time last year, a friend of mine recommended to me a book called 'Lord Loss'. She said it was brilliant and since the author is the same as the Darren Shan saga, I gave it a go.

As soon as I started reading it, I couldnt put the book down. Seriously. I think I finished it in half a day. It was sooo good! The story revolves around a teenage boy name Grubbs Grady and somehow, years ago, his family members have been cursed to turn into werewolves by the time they turn into teenagers. His parents, got slaughtered by demons in order to save his sister, Gret who was slowly changing into a werewolf (she died as well). Not gonna tell you what happens next, obviously.

I bought the second book, Demon Thief, not long after i finish reading Lord Loss. If Lord Loss was good, Demon Thief is DA BOMB. I've looked up reviews for this book and somehow, not many people like to read Demon Thief. Personally, I really love this book. The story revolves around Kernel Fleck who has always been slightly odd since he can see weird lights as soon as he was born . I like Kernel way more than Grubbs because he is much braver and somehow more interesting than Grubbs. Oh and he can also manipulate lights.

In a way, my excitement towards the series began to dim a little after the fourth book, Bec. Now this book revolves around a girl named Bec, who is a priestess. The story takes place in the old ages. And she is also an ancestor of Grubbs.

I kept on reading the other books anyway, since I wanted to know what happens in the end. In Demon Apocalypse ( I think ) the 3 of them met each other. Now, this is odd since Bec was from the old ages, Kernel was from when Grubbs' uncle was still a teenager and he (Kernel) STILL remains a teen and Grubbs is from the present time. How does that happen? Read the book, please.

All and all, I think its a good series but I prefer The Darren Shan saga as the ending is more satisfying. Also, the author mainly focuses the story on Grubbs and Bec. Its always about them. Its pretty unfair for Kernel. I mean, only Grubbs and Bec does all the work and not often Kernel.

My least favourite hero in the book? Well, oviously Grubbs. He's such a coward and a whiner and he deserved less attention than he got.

Favourite? You guessed it. Master Kernel Fleck. Though he's bald.

oopsies, look at the time! The Piala Malaysia is about to start in minutes now and its Negeri Sembilan vs. Kelantan in the finals.

GOOOO NEGERI SEMBILAN!!

The Diary

2010-10-02T18:46:00.002+08:00

Oh how I love Hollywood Undead.

Some might say that rock and rap cant mix but well, they managed to pull it off. Its a shame that they kicked Deuce out though. To me, his voice is very different from the others. While the others have big, hard-ish voices, he sounds.. well different. Hard to say.

One Camera Army

2010-09-24T22:10:00.003+08:00

Today was one heck of a day. Somehow after recess, I became slightly bonkers and practically lost my sanity during Sivik. I think its because of the pineapple juice. Sigh.

Anyway, See those photos above? They were taken by a photographer, former classmate and a friend of mine, Teoh Jun Yu.

As you can see, those photos are beautifully taken but those are the photos he took last year. This year, he has improved more than ever.

You can see more of these beautiful taken photos on his very own website, One Camera Army.

Please, do visit it. And when I say 'please', what I really meant is 'visit the website or I'll hire the world class assassin (me) to hunt you down'.

Ketupat, Rendang

2010-09-13T22:37:00.007+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya everybody! Whoa, I sure had some fun this year. Me and my family went back to my hometown in the evening of raya. That morning, went to solat raya at the mosque near my house. Ali told me he'd be there but I only saw his dad. That faker =,=

When we finally reached there, I felt so darn exhausted. All of my mother's siblings are there so its practically 'full house'. heheh. Wanted to play mercun but everyone was obviously too tired. That night, I watched an Indoonesian horror show with my aunts, uncles, sister and mom. Wasant that scary but it was kinda fun to watch!

The next day, had to wake up early (quite a problem for me and my sisters!) because my aunt suggested we take a family photo in a studio. That got everyone excited. I put on my brown/maroon and was forced (not really) to wear some make up. My other aunt put on some blue eyeshadow and abit of LIPSTICK. screeech!

I bet you're thinking, 'hold up! make up?! on SYAFINAS?!'

No kidding. Dont believe me? Lookie here ;

Can you see it? No? GOOD.

Visited some relatives after that. Played mercun at night BD

Next day, aunts and uncs went back and me and my fam went to a friend's house.

Went back home the next day. Daaaamn tired.

Guess im done. Have a few more homework to finish and needa catch up with studying.

2010-08-29T00:35:00.002+08:00

It's been awhile since i felt this way. But Im just going to say it.

I feel hurt.

So so hurt.

Do you even consider me as a friend? You dont, do you?

I bet you consider those people as your friends. Yeah. Call me jealous or anything but I dont care. Not anymore.

You start conversations with me. For the sake of.. Heck, I dont even know. And after a few sentences, you forgot all about me, even have the guts to actually say it to me.

Well, if you know that you're going to 'forget' ever having a conversations with me, why bother starting?

You only talk to me when you know I found out about something you wont tell me. And when I ask for the full story, you told me that you will tell me after so and so.

But you didnt did you? Ask me to ask questions to know instead. Well, how am I suppose to ask you something I DONT KNOW?

I give up. I dont care about you anymore. Atleast, not like i used to.

No, i dont have a fantasy crush on you. And hope I never will.

But I liked you as a friend. A good one, I thought.

But you cant be. Since you yourself make it impossible for me to like you anymore.

Can You Take It All Away?

2010-08-12T10:21:00.004+08:00

Triple Threats!

We lost 2-1 by penalty but thats cool. Atleast we're second best.

I was about to write about the mistakes I made during the game but theres no point in doing that. We cant fix the past.

Anywho, puasa month just started yesterday which means no eating for a month. Dont sweat it, I can handle it =] also, we get to go home earlier by an hour. Like, yay.

Seriously need to brush up my drawing tablet skills. Damn.

I'll Do Anything

2010-07-19T21:43:00.004+08:00

The taeguk tournament thing yesterday went well I think. Got second for pairs with Kay Li.

Damn those matsa people. And I only made it to the finals for individual :( another, damn those

matsa people.

Watched Eclipse. Hella boring. Ate sushi for the first AND last time. Got my second bubble tea in

years <3

I CHANGED MY PASSWORD FREEAAAKK!

though 'something' told me not to delete that post XD

BAHAHAH.

2010-07-18T23:43:00.002+08:00

You still haven't changed your pass eh?

HACKED.

FML. I wanted to give you a nicer DP but, NO. I can haz his pictureeee. ;D

he IS still in the picture but, he's facing the other way! AHAHHAH.

*runs*

Oh Chariot!

2010-07-14T00:03:00.005+08:00

your puma bag...

Yes Mr. Puma bag, you know who you are!
I seriously just have to say this... ITS JULY ALREADY?! I mean, it only seems like days ago since I just restarted school, awkwardly entering Cengal, not knowing what the heck I was doing, seriously.

School is school. Nothing new or bombastic. Just school. These past few days have been uneventful and tiring. Gorgeous. Barely had any sleep since the month started.

Cheer 10' was on last Saturday and Sunday. I only went to the Sunday one though. Dynamitez won 3rd (improvement from last year) and Mickeymitez won the best newcomer thingy. We didnt win the support thing though. We should've. But i heard from someone that we didnt win coz our mascot looked like a pipe instead of a dynamite ==

Slept through some cheers eventhough everyone was shouting their heads off. Very powerfull, this girl.
Would love to upload some stuff but my new card reader is that shizzz.. WHERE DID I PUT MY OLD ONE?!

Solve the Riddle of Your Heart

2010-07-04T01:04:00.003+08:00

emo screamo. Why do people use the word emo? Its not an emotion, sad is.
Anyway, my so called previous post must've sound upsetting but it is to me.
Got my results back. Pretty good I guess, I jumped up 8 places. umm.. got my report card back. Teacher said i was noisy. Havent even started the sejarah project. had to pass it up last friday (Y)
kill meee.

Restarted audi. now everyone is playing it haha. oh dear.

Rascall Flatts! What Hurts the Most! listen to it!

This is the Death of Beauty

2010-07-04T01:02:00.001+08:00

I think my plan went well.
I should be happy right?

wrongwrongwrong

Im Only Gonna Let. You. Kill. Me. ONCE!

2010-06-03T23:10:00.002+08:00

Good grapes. It took me forever to find a video of this song with an embed code.

Exams are over and holidays are here. Im not sure wheter Im thrilled or dreading this. Not gonna mention how my papers went. Apparently when I say something about anything, the exact opposite will happen. Curses are strong, my friend.

Please, unchain me from these.. uh.. chains so I can be as free as my cat.

When You Lose Something You Cant Replace

2010-05-17T19:24:00.003+08:00

I just cam back from school and Im tired.
tiredtiredtired.
School is getting even more dull everyday.
My blog is getting more sorrowful everytime I update.

Who is going to save me from myself?

Its Like Im Paranoid

2010-05-13T23:50:00.005+08:00

I think I have gotten abit mad these past few days. And a little too stressed out too.
School? Cengal is terror. I miss Balau so darn much.
I cant go by a day without feeling sad-ish.

Anywho, exams are coming up and Im.. prepared? Not prepared? Not sure. I feel semi-mad and tired now. I didnt even draw my KGT maps yet. Whee~

''The only heart-shaped keychain I like broke off from its string and got stepped on by a prefect."

Im officially cursed.

From Darkness to Light

2010-05-03T20:07:00.005+08:00

Thank you ;

Jason Wee, Tan Mei Ping, James Tan, Yohanna Yusrinal, Teoh Jun Yu, Irene Soh and Ali Nazran

you guys made my 'worst birthday ever' to the 'most fun birthday ever'.

Sing for Absolution

2010-04-29T21:27:00.002+08:00

hahaha. Im so freaking upset. hahahaha.

BLUE! BLACK! WHITE!

2010-04-14T21:14:00.006+08:00

B302 ♥

I had a great time today at sports day =D

Participated in 3 events but I only got 1 bronze medal for 4x100. I totally crashed and burned for lompat tinggi but I didnt think I could've won anyway. 100m.. i was damn dissapointed but what to do, what to do. I only managed to 'ace' 4x100 coz the wind was howling like mad I swore it was gonna rain. But its my element so.. you get the point XD

during 100m, it was so damn freakin' hot. I mean really. when the dude said 'ke garisan!', i dreaded to put my hand on the track D:

To me I think Berjaya's marching was cool but we all popped the balloon at the wrong time! We were suppose to do it when they were in a 'shooting' position but we popped it before then. dont kill me but Unggul's marching wasant as good as last year's. I didnt really pay attention to them. Oh well.

OVERALL-

5th- Kesatria/Maju

4th- Maju/ Kesatria

3rd- Hebat

2nd- BERJAYAAAAAAA >D

1st- Unggul

Not skipping school tomorrow or Pn. C will go 'I WILL KICK YOU OUT OF MY CHOIR!' (Im immitating her) so I can only ponteng tuition. Mrs. Dhillion is gonna kill me! XD

anywho, Im gonna miss going to Berjaya practises :'D and next year, Im gonna lari betul-betul!

ps; I LOVED my blue hair =D

Heal The World

2010-04-03T12:09:00.001+08:00

To read about my day on Friday

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You Treat Me Just Like Another Stranger

2010-03-20T23:10:00.002+08:00

Went out to OU today to shop. WOW. I never shopped that 'much' for clothes in my life. Was completely satisfied. Sort of. Out of 5 of the clothes I bought, Im very very satisfied with only 3 of them D:

Gracias to moi sista Syakirah for buying moi those el fabulaso clothes and those magnifique sneakers =D

Oh i also went book shopping of course. I bought 3 books of 3 different genres, hehe.

Horror- Blood Beast by Darren Shan (go demons!)
Girls - Along for the Ride by Sarah Dessen
Classic- To Kill a Mockingbird by Harper Lee

There was this one guy that I ALWAYS see in every section of books I went to. He was there when I was at the Horror section, Classic and even when I was waaaaayyy at the back at the Music section. He was pretty cute, actually xD also, I HAVE NO IDEA that MPH has a CAFE inside. Will check it out another time.

Failed to finish Eden of the East this hols due to my unstable emotion.

gagagagaga

Through The Veins of History

2010-03-18T23:25:00.002+08:00

What i always do when i go online ;

Go on MSN
Visit facebook
Go read some FMLs
Visit my DA

I wanna step on something. I really do. I cant play any of my games because SOMEBODY broke the mouse and I havent touched them in a while so i have to assholly download patches. greaaattt.

We Are The World

2010-03-18T15:45:00.002+08:00

Today, I compared both 'We are the world' songs. the new and the old.

The Old Version

The New Version

what a.. umm.. drastic change. From Lionel Richie to Justin Bieber? I obviously like the older version but the new one isnt THAT bad either. so whattaheck.

2010-03-16T20:16:00.001+08:00

Thank you Tan Mei Ping for helping me with the song =D

We Live A Dying Dream

2010-03-15T16:34:00.003+08:00

Got back from my super short gateway yesterday. The place was great and is french themed but theres not much to do. Honestly, Im too lazy to blog about my stay there but OHOH! i wore a kimono! =D

Theres a somewhat kind of japanese village there. Super cool man! not gonna upload pics but maybe on MSN xD

Oh and my mouse broke ==

These Words Were Never Easier

2010-03-12T21:00:00.002+08:00

My excitement toward holidays and exam ending died on the way home. Bandar Utama is so freaking jam today, i came home at 8. ohyeah EXAMS! how did i do? lets see..

Agama- Im not gonna say anything to curse it so im just gonna say, 'it was okay =D'

BM- Umm.. not the best BM test I've ever done.

English- Ok (no smiley here)

Science- okay =D

Sejarah- A OK =D

Maths- Are you kidding me? I almost cried

KHB- I dont know how to do most of the questions =p

Geografi- I got all worried for nothing! =)

Something weird happened. When i was going to the trashcan in the canteen to throw something, a random form1 dude kicked my leg and said 'F*ck You' and went off. I was dazed. I mean, WTF?! i dont even know that guy! I mean he kicked AND cursed me?! Im gonna get him.

Going to Pahang tomorrow for a super-short-holiday. Its a shame that the holidays are only for a week.

Ciao!

I Wont Hesitate

2010-03-04T11:02:00.002+08:00

'Dont lie to yourself'

'Im not lying to myself, Im lying to you'

Wakakaka!

Got back from tuition, Im suppose to be studying now but i got distracted and couldnt concentrate. Thanks alot, Jason Mraz.

Mr. Brightside

2010-03-02T00:06:00.002+08:00

Eventhough Sejarah is my favourite subject, its killing me inside out. Watched 'The Reader' the other day. Review? Just plain odd. I mean you're about to go out of jail tomorrow and you kill yourself? Man, thats wrong! You can live a happy life even if your phedo-ish life is over. Speaking of phedophiles, whats up with the woman going out with a Fifteen year old lad? call me ageist but thats wrong-er. Really.

Jealousy, Turning saints into the sea.

All The Right Moves

2010-02-27T19:46:00.001+08:00

Im amused

They got, all the right moves and all the wrong faces

So yeah, we're going down

We are young, We have heart

2010-02-26T20:19:00.003+08:00

exams? are the teachers trying to murder us?

its bad enough that I got Pn Ida for Sejarah. Now that shes away in labour, Pn Leow isnt any better. really. all we have to do is read those stupid paragraphs. if thats all you have to do to get a 'sejarah teacher' degree, i can pass with my eyes closed.

Friday was a blast, no questions asked.

2010-01-30T19:52:00.001+08:00

Im suppose to read my 'Pahlawan Pasir Salak' but Im reading other books instead.

NO I DONT WANT TO HAVE A PILLOW FIGHT!

2010-01-16T20:36:00.002+08:00

Bad Romance

2010-01-16T20:15:00.003+08:00

How the heck am I suppose to do my BM homework if Raihana has my textbook? Im gonna get smashed,bashed and eaten by Cik Norliza. And by the time shes done with me, I'll be all bones. Gonna have my bangs trimmed. Its already pass my eyebrows. and Lulu cant stop bugging me about it.
OHYEAH! I made some interesting progress in Dragonica. Finally managed to ditch my Canine Blade and gotten myself a Frost Blade. Thanks ToToSai. :)
SWEET! I just recalled that they changed the softball day to Monday which means...
I CAN GO! just my luck, maaan!! After that, I terus go BERJAYA =D
oh and have you guys heard? No more MSSD under 15 for ANY KIND OF SPORTS ANYMORE!!! wargghh!!
anyone wanna follow me to make banners and mogok? whats the use of kokurikulum if they'res no MSSD?! No more taekwondo and softball! Shit la. Government too poor ady.. Oh well. Back to my softball thing before i rudely interrupted myself, I dont think Cik Munirah will realize that i didnt sign in the form or even come to the first meeting woould she? If she does, then I'll just have to enter illegally, coz nothing aint stopping me >D

CHEERS!

Use Somebody

2010-01-14T00:02:00.003+08:00

I passed two week (almost) of school without getting any bruises or cuts along the way. Yeehaw.
Started koko on the second week but so far i only had BERJAYA. ok ok la. and i have TWO, read TWO activities on Friday. murder me. cant join softball anymore T-T
super sad but i'll surely try out for MSSD this year still >D
too much homework. i can just die now.

PMD was damn boring. especially Cik Subathra's time. she kept going on and on and on about her trip to Bangkok and how she shared a room with a half naked dude, blahblah. But PCI, today that is, is FUN. we all got scolded lots of time but it was worth it. super funny during prayers time. thanks alot, Zul xD

Bangs still kena kacau till now. pity it.
but im gonna have to trim it since its already over my eyebrows 0,0...

Happy Birthday SYAKIRAH!

2010-01-09T14:10:00.002+08:00

kakak tak lawa ;)

'Cause when you're... Fifteen! haha. wow, you turn older every year really quickly eh? xD

2010-01-05T00:45:00.001+08:00

My class still reeks.

monday is NOT agood day to start school. too long to explain. i complained lotsa times today and im too tired to repeat it. wanna hear it? talk to me after school.

2010-01-01T00:23:00.005+08:00

I Wish You All A Very Happy New Year :)

picture credits to the owner

Last Post of 2009

2009-12-31T20:17:00.006+08:00

Hello! this is obviously my last post for 2009! I had lotsa fun this year. I met lotsa new people and stuff.
Im gonna miss 2009. Goodbye! i know we will never meet again but you will always be in my memories, 2009, as one of the best year ever. =D

Farewell!

The Innocent Can Never Last

2009-12-29T12:09:00.001+08:00

My class reeks.

All I Hear Is Raindrops

2009-12-28T18:37:00.005+08:00

Goshie... i cut my hair. and i look LE DIFFERENT. and horrible for dramatic effect xD

as soon as the hairdresser finished cutting my hair, i see the final result reminded me of something...

...

yeah. it looks like one Maple Story hair. this one ;

AND like my Audition hair ;

except for tht my hair is a lil longer. yup. my long hair is now shorter. boohoo. it looks more like the maple charac. and NO im not gonna post my real-life piccy here. u guys going for the class checking crap? i am. no way im i gonna let other people tell me what class am i in. its for my eyes only xD so do me a favour and dont tell me what class i get if u went to school before me. hope i dont go to penaga or something.

Close To Me

2009-12-24T01:01:00.004+08:00

IM DEAD BORED.
seriously, i can cry cause im so damn bored.
tick tock.
its already the 24th of December. kill me. holidays are gonna end and thats a big NONO for mua. i didnt even do anything excitting this hols. i think i just.. hibernated =__=

shoot me for listening to HelloGoodbye will ya?

OHOH! im addicted to a new game now. since

Audition's new patch WONT LOAD

SA has gotten CRAPPY SHIT LAGGY

wanted to re-download La Tale again. i freaking missed it. but then, i decided to change to something NEW.

*drumrolls*

DRAGONICA!

yup. all my character info is same as any other game i play/played. im currently a level 8 warrior. but SADLY my beloved name, darkflames is taken. so im using something else ;)

not telling unless ur playing it!

Webcamming With EDRIE!

2009-12-08T17:58:00.003+08:00

who is that makcik?!?!

Goodbye For Now

2009-12-07T14:42:00.002+08:00

I can still see the light at the end of the tunnel shine
through the dark times
even when I lose my mind

But it feels like no one
in the world is listening
and I can't ever seem
to make the right decisions

I walk around in the same haze
I'm still caught in my same ways
I'm losing time in these strange days
but somehow I always know
the right things to say
I walk around in the same haze
I'm still caught in my same ways
I'm losing time in these strange days
but somehow I always know
the right things to say

I don't know what time it is
or who’s the one to blame for this
Do I believe what I can't see
And how do you know
which way the wind blows

Cause I can feel it all around
I'm lost between the sound
And just when I think
I know, there she goes

Goodbye for now
Goodbye for now
So long

Goodbye for now (I'm not the type to say I told you so)
Goodbye for now
So long (I think the hardest part of holding on is letting it go)

When will we sing
A new song
A new song

We’re still smilin' as the day goes by
and how come nobody
ever knows the reasons why
Bury you deep so far
you can't see

If you're like me
who wears a broken
heart on your sleeve

Pains and struggles that
you know so well
Either time don't
It can't or it just won't tell

I'm not the type to say
I told you so
I think the hardest part
of holding on is letting it go

For every other word
left unsaid you should have took the time to
read the sign and
see what it meant

In some ways everybody
feels alone so if the
burden is mine then
I can carry my own

If joy really comes
in the morning time
then I'm gonna sit back
and wait until the
next sunrise....

Goodbye for now
Goodbye for now
So long

When will we sing
A new song
A new song

Agagagagaga
I only copied what i wanted.

Breakout!

2009-12-02T16:15:00.003+08:00

Its raining again!!!! and i thought i could grow taller and *cough* slimmer this hols so that when school reopens, KA BAM! people go 'ooohh'.
but i cant! since its raining everyday. in the morning punyalah panas terik. and when me or anyone in my family says 'what a beautiful wheater' it'll start raining. we should start saying 'jom main hujan!' from now on.
I didnt even watch New Moon yet. im gonna drag one of you people to be my victim!
MWAHAHAHAHAHAH!
gosh i hear thunder.
I SHALL RUN!

Rip It Up

2009-11-30T16:48:00.001+08:00

IM SO BORED!
This is one boring holidays -__-
If im not at home, hogging the computer, im out, watching movie. same old same old routine.
I
NEED
SOMETHING
NEW!

Heartbeat

2009-11-27T00:10:00.004+08:00

So baby keep my heart beat b-beat beat beating

yo freaks. it holidays *claps* but somehow im not in the holiday mood yet. dunno why. everyday i wake up i keep on thinking that theres school tomorrow.
speaking of moods, im not really into interacting with people lately. i wish i could just be anti social for my whole life. i want people to GO AWAY from me. seriously. just bug off.
i think i got mental issues. huh.

Im Not Your Princess

2009-11-17T01:28:00.003+08:00

WHAT A DAY.
i bet every Balau-ians are going 'i shouldnt have came today'. and i was THIS close to not coming but i just had to go.
starting of school, all of us, including the form 2's have to go to the dewan. there was like, only 30+ of us altogether xD
then Pn. Cheng started telling us to give her any barang larangan that we 'accidently' brought to school. i brought my phone to school. but obviously not accidently -__- at that moment, i already smelled something fishy.
WELL BIG SUPRISE!
all of a sudden, while we were playing Truth or Dare, Pn. Wong came in with a line of horrible looking prefects and she was gonna do a SPOT CHECK. apalagi, semua org paniclah! i almost wet my pants.
we all had to stand outside while we kena 'body check'. yes, it was as scary as it sounded.
at that time, i didnt know what to do. so before the prefect came to me, i turned behind and stuffed my phone down my skirt. HAHAH. dont ask me how i did it. i just did.
crazy, even when i pulled my baju tightly, the prefect cant see it. hahahahah!!
and while i was waiting for the others to finish, my phone actually VIBRATED FOR 4 TIMES.
DAMN U XIU WERN! call me for what! luckily, tak kena tangkap.
my other classmates were less fotunate. their cameras, phones, candies, staplers and others kena rampas. it was shit.
we also found out that our class was the only class tht kena spotcheck -_-
Shin Lin, Zheng Yang and Jun Yu got their stuffs back coz their parents came. i guess u can get ur stuff back if ur parents come to see Pn. Cheng.
anyho, played another game of Truth or Dare.

NOTE TO SELF:
NEVER play truth or dare with Yohanna. coz most of the dares involves kissing. damn.

then when the bell ring, we all hugged each other :'D
and it was obvious that we're not meant to leave 1 Balau just yet coz when we went down, the gate was locked! hahah.
then Uncle Bala (wtv) came and unlock it.

IM SOOOO GONNA MISS ONE BALAU NEXT YEAR!

WE ROCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ohyeah, only 22 ppl came today.

tomorrow gotta go to SKDJ1 to go and get the 5A UPSR thingy. huhu..

You'd Want To End Your Life

2009-11-15T01:11:00.002+08:00

Peacepeace.
I had fun at Edrie's pool party =)
and now im too lazy to blog. Will do more when im in the mood ya'll!

Im Broke!

2009-11-12T21:26:00.002+08:00

Hello!
i hate this month of the year : NOVEMBER
when you say byebye to your classmates cause its the end of the year. and we probably wont end up in the same class as each other. huhu.. had tons of fun 'cam-whoring' in class. even if you werent there.
most of my friends brought their cameras, phones, etc. to school so they can take photos and stuff. i didnt coz mine was with my sis ==
the last subject was suppose to be Pn. Choong but then kena ganti by this teacher whose name i forgotten (sorries)
she was damn sporting! she let me and my friends take pics using Jun Yu's DSLR and she didnt even rampas. hehe
at the end of the day, we all, 1BALAU took a class pic. shit.. im soooooo gonna miss you guys!

oh yeah, got my exam results back. sucky sucky sucky. my percentage sucked even more and im probabaly gonna end up in a sucky class. im damned.

and FINALLY after so many YEARS(no kidding) i bought.. *drumrolls*
THE LAST DARREN SHAN BOOK!!!
woohooo.. but the ending was.. not what i expected la. not that dissapointing. but not 'da bomb' either. hmm.. i might start to read The Demonata soon.

There's Nothing Else I Can Say~!

2009-11-04T23:37:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was a LE HORRIBLEY day. one month with no kemajuan whatsoever. yes i saw u outside school and i didnt see u IN school. yes i know ur dirty little secret.
i sound psychotic, dont i?
anywho, got my exam results back. yes, it sucks more than yesterday. life goes on! our road is still long! at least, thats what 2 people told me..
i have..
9 hours and 7 mins till 9 a.m. which is the time tht i have to wake up and do my science corrections. does it matter? why yes, it does.
if i dont do it, Pn Puah's gonna cut my ALREADY LOW MARKS.

audi got patch. cant go crazy.

baby are you down,down,down,down,DOWN.

Last Goodbye

2009-11-01T14:47:00.002+08:00

Goodbye October
HELLO NOVEMBER!!
its a good thing cause

a) EXAMS ARE OVAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

and

b) School holidays are coming reaaall soon!

but.. dang, i dont want the year to end yet =( i cant bear thinking about the fact that next year, im not gonna be in 1Balau anymore and im not gonna be in the same class as some of my friends T-T

Got my Sej. marks back. its ok but late term's one was better. should've studied two weeks before exams. oh wellies. whats done is done. Im kinda happy bout my Maths paper 1 too ^^
let me get this out..

WOHOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

okay, im done. can go audi crazy like crazy after this =D wanna go SA crazy too but somehow my patch cant load. damn. gonna re-install it. soon. when im not so malas.

Love Game

2009-10-23T23:10:00.002+08:00

It's everybody's favourite.. EXAM WEEK!
not.
Im still strugling to study Sejarah, Geo and KH.. okay i mean all the need-to-read subjects. hahah. I screwed up the 1st two papers. Agama & BI2. im not so confident anymore.
but i can do Sc, Bm2 and Maths okayly =). i said okay. not perfect.
Hmm.. im gonna take a sweet time writing this post.
long time i never update, when i finally do im gonna write a looooong one. i think.

one of my ACE fave Amv's. timing so goddamn perfect. I can watch this for over 1000 times and not get bored.

u know what? my looooong post ends here.

Thunder

2009-10-08T14:44:00.002+08:00

Im angry. enough said. I cant bring myself to study. prepare to fail, Syaf.

I Wanna Be With You~

2009-10-04T00:43:00.003+08:00

Hey i've been kinda busy lately. With the finals and all (though i havent even started studying yet!)
Today.. wait i mean YESTERDAY was SKDJ1's hari kantin. the school still looked the same. except for.. different wall colours and such. Mohradi greeted my with a creepy smile when i came in -__-
I have loadsa fun ^^ no piccys eventho i brought my camera~ i went into the rumah hantu loads of time too =p
first i went in with Bridget, Michelle, Irene, Mei Ping and Kays. the ghost went cuckoo on me and DIDNT even attack my friends. thanks alot guys.
the ghosts kept on going
SYAFINAS!!!!!
WHY DID U COME BACK TO DJ?
WOOO~~

something like that. and my pants got pulled. huh. second time i went in with James, Aaron, Mich again i think and a few others.. forgot..
then i went in again with Hash. hahah. luckily i 'stole' the torchlight from tht kid or it'll be too dark in there 0.0
then i went with Jaz and my sis. woots.

Jumping castle was AWESOME eventho i only went in once. i habis kena himpit by people. and Bg accidently sat on me -_-
all and all i dont think I'll forget today. its not much but it was fun for me. oh yeah! incase u wanna know, i saw Sarah. but she came only hours after u guys left. she looks slimmer =x
hahah.

When Darkness Turns To Light

2009-09-26T16:19:00.003+08:00

Hell. I obviously cant finish my manga in time before the competition deadline. i guess it means that im not participating. damn.
Raya celebration was hell of a fun. First day of raya i went back to Negeri Sembilan to see my cousins. Reached there about.. not suree, but at night lah. Then me and my sisters played mercun with two of my dude cousins. hahah. Oh yeah, i saw Ali at the mosque that morning ^^

After we finished visitting out relatives there, we headed to Melaka. God the traffic was awful. plus my dad's car's aircond rosak. i almost died. Thursday night was one of the most tiring yet fun day ever =) will never forget it i guess.. heheh.

okaays... too lazy to upload photos so thats it then.

enjoy your last few days of holiday!!

Mama Do

2009-09-18T18:58:00.005+08:00

i was soo depressed on Tuesday that i decided to skip school on Wed. hahah cant believe my mum let me! why am i depressed? im not telling. yesterday was the last day of school since Raya (yay) is coming! wohoooo!!!!

why does time go by so quickly?
last time when i was still little.. well its not ike im THAT big now, i thought puasa was freaking long. a month seems to take FOREVER! now, i can count, its like damn fast weih. kill me.

im not even ready for my end year exam yet. im ready if i suddenly drop class. and shit! i have less than a month to finish my project and i have over 10 pages left to do! im never gonna finish it in time!
pfftt.. oh well. it looks like i have to push myself harder.
tomorrow is the last day to puasa~! yeah!!! i cant wait for raya!! gonna balik kampung on the first day. i hope its not freaking jam!

ciaoz monkeys! Happy Hols btw!

Lonely.. Find Me..

2009-09-13T16:49:00.002+08:00

Yo! long time no blogging. yesterday i came back from Kayu at 12 something a.m. aint that cool?
and TODAY i was dragged out of the house by my family to go shoe shopping. thank god i survived.
bought the 2nd book of Beast Master (in your face Renes) and the 10th book from the Darren Shan saga. seriously? its turning to be the best series i've ever read. and im sooo damn freaking excited when i found out that the movie is gonna come out!!!! xDDDD..
...
...

until i watched the trailer. damn am i dissapointed..

watch it here : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9Uj-2JNPtos&feature=related

i'd love to point out a few- wait i mean A LOT of mistakes that are just plain WRONG WRONG WRONG here.. but i'll wait till the movie comes out.

i have less than a month to finish my little 'project'. great.

murder me.

Dear Maria Count Me In

2009-09-06T14:56:00.003+08:00

A week of puasa-ing went by swiftly. in fact, even the week seemed to pass very quickly. i wonder why.

school wasant that bad this week. it was actually quite fun ^^

what to say arh? i only wanted to post something for the sake of updating =__= i spent MOST of my time yesterday colouring a goddamn picture for a goddamn contest.

the lineart. NOT drawn by me.

COLOURED by me. suckish. i know.

i messed up the hair big time. gonna post up the speedpaint soon.

#99. The Kill

2009-08-27T14:07:00.000+08:00

bury me. im serious.

Mad

2009-08-22T16:43:00.003+08:00

BOOM!

what a week @.@

on Thursday, our school had a Merdeka thing going on. since im in the choir, we had to sing. honestly? i think we sucked badly. the sketch and all was funny and good i guess but i wasant paying much attention.
yesterday was our last day till our 1 week hols. ok ok la
no that fun but its still kinda fun~

IN YOUR FACE MEIP! Cross *sigh* came <3 hothothot
summore he took the poom class. hahah.

oh yeah! Audi got windows mode. damn freaking cool weihh..

heheh. but it was laggy. it'll be even laggy-er if you on msn. oh welllies..

Selamat Menyambut Ramadhan!

to all the muslims~ dont eat ahh...

im investigating a case. its called: The Case Of The Missing Prepaid. sounds familiar? apparently, when i top it up in my phone, nothing came out. weird huh? the case is still going on... till then!

A Wish~

2009-08-15T14:01:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday Mimi!!

oh gawd ur 17! next year you can drive me around! yeah yeah..

Dango Daikozaku =3

2009-08-15T13:30:00.002+08:00

I finished watching Clannad a few days ago. it was really nice and touching and *ehem* sweet. i like episode 18 & 20 the best. arghh.. it was too cute to bear!

but.. im not really finished with it yet. there's still Clannad After Story. must. watch. it.

rating 5/5 oh yeah! i didnt really watch it online since was lappie loads for like a 1000 years long so i bought the DVD =X it was worth it though..

i think im done fangirling over Archer. Tomoya is next >D he's so hot~~

I Want To Be Free

2009-08-14T21:10:00.004+08:00

dull dull week.

Happy Birthday Jason Wee Chong Wai

i hope u like the raincoat =3 and the *cough* hair dye. I got a unique blue cup today~~ i keep on telling my friends to look around and see wheter oother people got blue cup or not. nobody but me. HAHAH. Kay Li was getting tired of me bragging bout the cup.

other than that.

it was a dull dull week. thank goodness its ending.

i got THREE more days to replace my puasa. i really hope i finish them in time or not i have to double it next year 0__0 suffer!

im listening to calming jazz music. Estrella, to be specific. i was so pissed at this certain 'somebody' in choir. she thinks that shes so good. pfft. get real.

i skipped taekwondo today. i wonder if Cross(hawtie) was there.. hmm...

I'm Trying Not to Think About You

2009-08-08T17:38:00.004+08:00

Wanted to change my blog skin AGAIN. epic fail =.= sorry for the late blog post but..

HAPPY(belated) BIRTHDAY XIU WERN!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAY LI xD

i have two so called projects to do this weekend. KGT and that freaking Sivik card. yes, a merdeka card. and to think that Xiu Wern n Kays are old. Malaysia's older! xD

yesterday, 10 people never come to school. i hate you guys =.= class was so dull and boring. and before you can perasan, no Yohanna i did not miss you =3

...

im in deep trouble.

watch out shorty! coz im keeping 4 of my eyes on you~

fairy tales NEVER fails to amuse me..

over & out!

# 100. Helena

2009-08-05T20:55:00.002+08:00

This is ME!

2009-08-03T20:56:00.003+08:00

took a few personality quizzes. its coolness XD

Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education:
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:
You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

another one...

You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.

You don't really care about other people's feelings. You do things the way you want and usually think only about yourself. You are easy-going and love to have fun, but you can be irresponsible as well. You are not keen on serious discussions because they can make you remember that life isn't always about parties.

You are a bright, cheerful and bubbly person. You are thoughtful and considerate, and like to have fun. Everybody feels comfortable around you because of your pleasant nature. When you walk into a room, people's eyes are likely to be drawn to you because of your charm.

Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?

Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.

wahahah.. i watched The Ghost Of The Girlfriend's Past (or sumtin liddat) yesterday. it was very funny =D
rating : 4/5